Just Who I Am: To Adrian and Ty

"Now that I've met you, would you object to never seeing each other again?" (1)

 You can't hold me because I'll push you off.  You say you love me and I'll say I don't.  You try and kiss me and I'll turn away.  With you, only with you, I'm too honest for our own good.  I've got walls too high to scale, scars so thick they look like skin, regrets to wide to get around and you're just another drop in the bucket.  But this levee won't break.  You can't get in.

Lying in bed, looking at you, you're both the same.  Too beautiful for our own good, so I'm going to ruin everything again.  But I can shoulder my mistakes with a smile.  Practice makes perfect-- these things are easier the second time around, but these things don't get any better.

Commitment is a four letter word, and it's one that I don't know.  

"So kiss me hard, because this will be the last time that I let you." (2)

I always walk away before I get too attached.

But believe me, baby.  You can do better that me.

 

"One day you're going to find someone, and right away you'll know it's true-- that all of you're seeking is done and I was just part of the passing through.   And right there in that moment you'll finally understand that I was better as a memory than as your man." (3)

Footnotes

1, Aimee Mann

2, Chris Carrabba

3, Kenny Chesney